5 Years

So 5 years ago today I had my first day of sobriety in 20 some years. I actually had my last drink on the 9th, was still drunk on the 10th, so I settled on calling the 11th my anniversary. That and 7/11 is easier to remember and an unusually lucky combination.

And this morning I had another thought: I totaled my car on the 9th hitting bottom, spent the 10th in a very bad place, and then was reborn into my new self on the 11th. There's a certain biblical pattern to that... hmmm.

Despite the fact that it was my "Easter" today, I didn't really do much to celebrate. I spent some time reflecting and even went back and read some of the emails from concerned friends 5 years ago. I got a few emails from friends congratulating me and send them emails back. I think that was enough.

I'd like to get a 5 year AA medallion  and thought about going to a meeting today but since I haven't gone for over a year I feel a little sheepish in showing up now (I'll still go, don't think that'll stop me). It's something I've been meaning to get back to for a while now. It has always felt a little awkward attending meetings, even those I went to regularly, but maybe things will be different, I think I've changed a more than a little over the last year.

So this is the first day of my sixth year of sobriety! Life is much different now than it was then and that is a blessing. Yeah me!